In all of the yoga classes I taught today, the theme was staying close to your unalterable essence. That silent, rock steady and calm place inside you, that some people would call the centre or core. I wasn’t planning on teaching a class like this, I didn’t left home thinking ‘well today, I will teach about the essence’. It just came up as I was leading class. Being centered became the red thread. And I guess it was just the perfect yoga class I needed for myself today.
Especially when it is stormy and rocky in your life, when everything is uncertain, when you feel there’s no earth beneath your feet, it’s comforting to come back to that still place. Where there is calmness, and peace. Most of the time, it’s not easy to go to that place. Just because we have our attention almost 24/7 outwards, to the ever changing outside world, which is all consuming. So much, that we forget about our own centre.
What would happen if you just become still and listen?
Have you ever listen to your inner voice, the voice of the Universe, or God if you will? Or would your ego interfere and couldn’t you hear what was actually being said to you?
It’s a difficult practice to do. Which voice comes from ego, which from spirit? Sometimes, you want something so bad you just ignore all the stop signs that the Universe will give you. And sometimes, the Universe is giving you all green lights and you are so caught up with thoughts that you don’t notice what is going on.
Today, I met with my friend, who I haven’t seen for a long time. I learned that she is 4 months pregnant. Wonderful news, which overwhelmed me with happiness for her and her family (she has a boyfriend and a 3 year old son). When I got home, I suddenly felt alone and insecure about my plans to dive deep in nature for 6 months and undertake such a huge plan like this, walking from Mexico to Canada and all the preparing that I have to do for it to make it happen. I wondered, does this plan comes from ego, or from the heart, from my soul? Shouldn’t I just stay home, caring more for the people I have in my life today? Giving them more love and attention? I don’t want to make the wrong decision.
What is my path in this lifetime?
Stepping out of the comfortableness of an own home, a business, the life I live here feels so scary, so uncertain. So… uncomfortable. Yet, I haven’t felt alive like this for a very long time.